Wdzięczność - Gratitude

Dear All,

Another week come and gone. Last week I was on a mission high - this week was a little more difficult but before I go into that let me talk about the wonderful people I am lucky to be with here in Wrocław.

Mx is very inellectual and seeks for proof. Sadly between our lessons he read and researched a lot of anti-mormon material (before my mission I had no idea how much there was!). However, the lesson was a succes! We went from his doubts and claims of misinformation to the end where he accepted that through reading The Book of Mormon and prayer he will find his answer. The problem is he doesn't feel like he's received an answer. It's hard, he progressed from having false thoughts to understanding how to find his answer this week but without a confirmation by the Spirit it's difficult to progress further. This week we will focus more on how to find answers through the Holy Ghost with humility and faith. We left it by inviting Mx to make up his mind whether The Book of Mormon is true or not and then pray to find out if he's right. He is a really smart, cool guy. I like him a lot. He wants to know truth. He knows that there is universal, eternal truth and he wants to find it.

Jb is incredible. He is practically a member. He says he has a little more time now to meet. He has great questions and faith. He wants this gospel and church to be true I think. He hasn't found received his answer either (basically what we are waiting on). Basically the key, two different people with different hesitations but it all comes to personal revelation. In order to have the desire and motivation to do all that Heavenly Father asks of us we must understand. We must receive a personal answer and see the blessings of following the commandments in our individual lives. That is what we are trying to help people feel: the love of Christ and Heavenly Father, along with building a relationship with Them.

Now this week was sort of funky, it went well for the most part but I just felt a little off. I'm learning a bunch and trying to improve. I need to rely on the Lord and others more in life. The love I receive from so many is countless and never ending. The thoughts and prayers from all over the world are reaching and touching me here. Thank you. I don't extend enough gratitude but I hope to express my sincere thanks for the love I feel, from all of you and my Savior. Through Christ comes clarity, peace, and light. Turn to Him in all things, especially when we need help. He is always there. 

z miłością,
Starszy Kimball

Dzień Dobry!

This has been my first transfer week, it was more stressful than I thought it would be but I am excited for this new start.

It's a big change being with Elder Meherg from what it was like with Elder Godwin. Elder Godwin reminded me not to compare the styles and never say anything to the effect of "well Elder Godwin and I did things this way." I thought it was obvious advice but it's been interesting learning how natural/tempting it is to say something like that. Changes are changes, for better, worse, or just simply different. It's taken some time to adjust to, in fact I am still am. I was thinking just before transfers about how comfortable I was feeling about things. The first transfer is crazy but then you learn. At first everything was out of my comfort zone but then as I learned and developed my comfort zone expanded. It's truly been a blessing to remember to turn to the Lord for everything. My prayers have again become more fervent and sincere. I do learn so many new things here but much of what I am being taught is remembrance. Repetition sometimes seems unneeded, merely redundant but it's essential for lasting growth. I am excited for this next transfer, to learn new things from Elder Meherg and have a fresh start. Elder Meherg is faithful and hardworking so I'm excited to see what we accomplish this transfer!

One of the greatest blessings about this last transfer is that I stayed in Wroclaw. Most people moved but I was lucky. The branch here continues to be a strength and blessing in my life. One of the best things about a new companion is a fresh start without specific expectations. We can always change and improve but with a new group of missionaries I feel like I can change things a little easier. For example at church yesterday, I talked to many more of the members and had deeper conversations. Before I was timid, unconfident, and relied on Elder Godwin. Now I feel more capable and want to get to know the members here better. With Elder Meherg there isn't that pattern of Elder Godwin taking the lead and me standing in the background. Yesterday I was more outgoing and engaged with the members, I think it also helps that I'm one of the "old missionaries" in Wroclaw, meaning the other missionaries (except for Sister Bown) are all new to the area. I love the members here. I want to serve and help them more but it's one of those situations where they are giving me so much more.

We met Mz on the street Saturday and invited him to church, he came yesterday. We then met with him and taught him a first. The lesson had a lot of tangents and didn't seem to have a great impact but we are meeting again. We will see. This week we have a lot of set up lessons, more than ever before - half are from the sisters (they are terrific!) - I am excited to meet and discuss the gospel with them.

Contacting has been a little tricky recently, I just have felt pretty discourage, especially in the group contactings (ex. whiteboards). This past week we had a whiteboard and I had a really successful time. I didn't teach or talk to more people than usual but my attitude was different. I talked to one bald guy with super sweet sunglasses, who said just two weeks before he had started looking into religion. He said he knew it was a priority but hadn't devoted much time to God. It was a testimony to me that Heavenly Father is preparing people to be ready to cross paths with us. They won't always become new investigators but I know that as we are there fulfilling our role of inviting others unto Christ we will find people who are ready to accept the gospel of Jesus Christ. 

Remember to not do things on your own! Rely on others and especially the Savior. I love you all.

Starszy Kimball

Transfers

Dzień Dobry!

My first first transfer comes to an end this week. It's frightening to realize, my mission is already going by so fast. So here is the big news:

I am staying here in Wroclaw but with a new companion, Elder Meherg (nobody here knows him so it's a mystery.) Sister Bown is staying and there will be a trio of sisters including Sister Wood from my MTC group. (Sister Bown goes home in February hence the trio) In addition we are getting another set of elders so we will have 7 missionaries and the Llyods! sidenote: our transfers are nine weeks long, most of the world has six-week transfers/ also this next one is a mega-tranfer of fourteen weeks because of the number of weeks per year.

I am really happy about things, I'm glad about staying in Wroclaw - I love it here and I feel like I just got started. Continuing the work here is a great blessing. However, I am also glad to change things up. I generally don't like change or groups splitting up so it's going to be difficult to say goodbye to Elder Godwin and Sister Poklinkowska. We will have new areas, I will be switching apartments, and I will be learning from different missionaries. Everybody here says that each transfer is a new beginning and those I do like. A new chance to recreate who you want to be. Especially since I was new I think it's important to switch people up so there aren't cemented perceptions. I feel like that limits me sometimes, being around people that know me and my weaknesses no matter how deep or superficial they may be. I feel like with this new transfer I will be able to work on different parts of myself, which is often hard to do when people already associate certain traits, habits, whatever with you.

Another huge reason I am grateful to stay is because of the branch. Yesterday, being fast Sunday, our sacrament meeting was devoted to testimonies. Our members are incredible. Their testimonies are strong and rooted in Christ. I was able to understand more than ever, which was great. I've probably said this before but our members are all about quality. Our mission is small, hard, has little success compared to the rest of the world BUT we are finding people who are searching for truth and they change their lives, devoting their time and priorities to Christ. Most of the members are converts themselves and they give me such hope, faith, and motivation to work harder to find others like them who want to come unto Christ. I am excited to find those people!

People:

We met with M this week, the sisters found him on a group contact, he came to church and they met with him for a little while but since elders teach men we started to meet with him. He is crazy smart and intellectual. He's a philosopher and knows a lot about beliefs of cultures from all around the world so I am really excited to get to know him and better.

While talking to people on Świdnicka, a street near the chapel (where we go a lot), I stopped this woman who believes in yoga philosophy, which shares a lot of Buddhist ideology. She was going off about self enlightenment and how God is this being that expresses Himself through feelings of peace, understanding, and light as we meditate. She had firm faith in her "Eastern Beliefs" and was closed off to anything else so we didn't talk to long. A little later she came back to find me and gave me a paper with the names of her favorite gurus. She was sharing her beliefs and what brings her happiness. It was touching and kind. I learned a lot from her. She had a profound understanding of truth that she has come to know by personal experience. Sadly, because of the way she viewed things she completely rejects "Western religion" as she called it. I don't understand why many people think that truth must be mutually exclusive amongst different religious sects. As I have learned about what different groups of people belief I love to connect the truth each has. There is no monopoly on truth, you can find it all around. M said that he loves learning about different perspectives to build his own belief. The great thing that the gospel of Jesus Christ offers is the fulness of truth with understanding of God's plan for us. Thanks to friends that accepted me, I learned from them to be open. That has been helped me be patient and understand where others are coming from. It's always hard to see rejection because of the joy I know others can experience as they choose to learn for themselves more about Jesus Christ and His gospel restored again on the earth. 

I always thought the examples of family and friends were to help to get me on my mission. Now that I'm here, everything they have taught me and their past and current examples are most pertinent as I carry out my missionary service. 

This next transfer I have a vision with many goals to accomplish a lot but I really want to focus on small and simple things. I used to hate that idea, all I wanted to do was the great and impressive things but my testimony of growing "by degrees" (Mosiah 21:16) has developed as I focus on improving and doing the little things.

I love you all. I love this work. I love my Savior Jesus Christ. I wish you all a great week!

z miłością,
Starszy Kimball

Hello all,

I hope you all had a wonderful holiday season!

This past week has been great!

Monday the 23 we had a zone conference with missionaries from Kielce, Krakow, Katowice and Wroclaw. President Edgren and the APs talked about some new focuses and gave training. We had lunch, a white elephant gift exchange, and watched the Christmas Devotional. It's always fun to get together  as a group of missionaries but this time especailly was strenghtening because it was Christ centered, the Spirit was so strong. 

The next day was Christmas Eve, sadly Sister Bown and I got really sick so we couldn't do much (all the missionaries in our district eventually caught the bug this week but we are all better now.) On Christmas most of us were feeling decent at least so we got together and made breakfast. We then watched LDS Bible videos and I'm a Mormon videos. Next we went to the Lloyds where we ate and played games. It was a lot of fun and laughs, it was nice to be in a group on Christmas. Tamara, the recent convert who was baptized a couple of weeks ago, joined the fesitivities the 24th and 25th. She is incredible. Her testimony is progressing and she is solid. Her family in Azerbaijan is opening up more and more as well. They now say that in a year they will support Tamara if she would like to serve a mission (yes she already wants to serve a mission!) They say they have seen a positive change in Tamara since she's met the church. Tamara says that as she has prayed her family has also become more open and accepting. Heavenly Father blesses us all specifically and intimately. His love is personal and present in our lives. 

I was lucky enough to end the day with a phone call home. Us missionaries all were able to talk and sing Polish carols to our families. I love my family. Families are such a vital gift from God and I am grateful for my own. Missions are helpful to reallign priorities and remind us of the importances in life. I know that families can and are supposed to be together forever. I feel so blessed to have the loving examples I do in my family.

I would like to focus today on an answer to a prayer I recieved this past week. At the end of the zone conference President Edgren invited all of the senior companions to share a short scripture and testimony about Christ. They were all heart felt and I love learning how others view Christ and to see the relationships they have built with Him. Sister Bown's words in particular brought peace to me. (she's in Wroclaw with me - our district is the best, I am so blessed to have them) Sister Bown talked about how she has never felt so effective as she does on her mission. She said that as we center our lives on Christ we will feel fulfilled. I often stress about how to sustain and remember all that I've learned and changed. I worry to know whether I am doing enough or how I need to improve. The simple answer is that as we focus our lives on the Savior we will be fulfilled. Through Christ comes peace, happiness, and light. I know that as we learn of Christ and build a relationship with him we will find answers. We will be happy. We will recieve everything that we need and even things that we want. We are fulfilled in Christ. As a missionary we don't get all the usual traditions of Christmas but what we do get is a clear focus of Jesus Christ, the Redeemer of the world. I recently was studying the titles of Christ, there are too many to mention but they show his role to us. Christ is there is uplift us, to help us, perfect us, and to love us. I love Jesus Christ and I promise that anyone who sincerely seeks to know him will find more joy and fulfillment than by any other means. 

I love you all and wish you a very Happy New Year

Starszy Kimball

Wesołych świąt!

Happy Holidays Everyone!

This week was a good one, nothing particularly miraculous but good stuff happened. The week before last I was looking ahead and thinking about what kind of missionary I wanted to become, who I wanted to be when I completed my mission etc. This week I took that image and made more short term goals targeting specific scripture and language study. I feel like there is so much that I want to do that it's overwhelming. I also feel like I'm spending all this time thinking about who/what I want to be and do. I don't want to get caught up in goals and planning to the point where I never actually just get to work and become who I want to be. I'm trying to find that balance now between creating a vision of who I want to be and letting the experiences I gain lead me.

Polish is, of course, still a big barrier. This week I understood more than ever before but that's not saying a whole lot sadly. There was one lesson in particular where I understand a lot. I don't get discouraged too often or even that discouraged in general and I am being blessed and guided. I just need to get working harder on my language, make it more of a focus.
Starszy Godwin is doing well. Our lessons are good but I'm trying to learn how to be more assertative. It's difficult to speak up sometimes when I know he can explain so much better than me but I'm trying to get over it.

Jarmark (the Christmas market/fair) is as magical as ever. We, with the sisters, spend as much time there as we can. It's fun, Christmasy, and there is a lot of tasty food. The Christmas Spirit is strong with us here in Wroclaw. Elder Godwin and I have been busy decorating stockings, the sisters had some carols so we made some Polish caroling books, and we are just loving the season. Missionary work has sadly taken a hit. You'd think because it's Christmas time people would be more inclined to focus some time on Christ. Instead it's a great excuse for people to tell us to contact them "after the holidays." Everyone is busy finishing things up at work/school and are preparing to leave to go back to their families (since we are in a big city with companies and universities here a big chunk of people aren't originaly from Wroclaw). That's not to say everyone is ignoring us but it does make things more difficult

This past week we had our "culture night." Once a transfer we have an evening from 17:00-22:00 to go out and do something fun and cultural. It's something to plan for so from the beginning of the transfer we've all been thinking of ideas. There were a lot of posters for Peter Pan on Ice, we casually thought about it but when the Lloyds (senior missionary couple) mentioned it we decided to go. This past Wednesday we got together and trammed out to the big Centennial Hall. We had all come with our expectations, slightly differing but pretty grand apprently. When we walked into the stadium the ice wasn't a large rink but a little sqaure in the middle of the floor. We assumed it would be a family show but the only other people besides us were young couples with their kids. Suffice it to say that we were disappointed. BUT then the show started and it was incredible. Never had any of us seen such skill especially on such a little block of ice. There was some cool ince-skating: men holding women above their head on one arm and spinning a million miles per hour, pirates doing crazy swings on ropes, and sword fights. We all enjoyed it in the end and had a lot of fun. Next we were all invited over to the Lloyds for my birthday dinner. Sister Lloyd made pork chops, mashed potatoes and gravy, peas & carrots, and rolls. Then for dessert she made "danish dessert" i.e. yellow cake with whip cream and then this jello-like strawberry layer on top. It was delicious and super thoughtful of Sister Lloyd - they are the best. The next day (my actual birthday) we went to Danuta and Boleslaws (the couple in their eighty's). They sang happy Birthday and Sto Lat, we had cake and they got me chocolates. The sisters gave me a decorated missionary planner. Sister Durrant from the office called to wish me a happy birthday too. It was a happy day. Not too much happened but I knew people were thinking of me (from all over) so it turned out to be a happy birthday indeed. It is funny to think I'm 19 already 1. because that's old and 2. because it's the age I always thought I'd be when I left on my mission.

PEOPLE!

M asked President Cielenski to meet yesterday, who then invited us. The meeting was about Marcin and his baptism. His heart is in the right place but he still has his doubts. Changing is hard and requires a whole lot of faith so I understand Marcin's hestitation. I hope he receives his answer and does what will make him happy.

J is stagnant. His family is as uninterested as ever. We met with him last night and encouraged him to set goals to help him progress and develop in the gospel - it's hard when baptism isn't a set goal already. He has a testimony and hopefully with time his family will turn around, it's hard.

R, our English student, is making progress. At first he only came for the English and didn't like the Spiritual aspect. Now, although still coming primarily for English, he mentioned how he likes coming because he feels good and he likes us. He's starting to feel the Spirit but just doesn't know it yet. He prayed at the end of the last lesson, it was short and simple. He thanked Heavenly Father for us missionaries and then asked for the health of his family and parents. He apologized for the briefness explaining that those were his only desires. He doesn't need money or anything else he just wants the health and safety of his family. Prayer is simple and he might not realize how well he understands it. We invited him to pray twice daily, including his family as well. We're trying to be bold but careful with him. Prayer is such an incredible gift. It is our communication with God, our creator, our father.

W and E have a cool story. Sister Ott, a missionary in another part of Poland, has an old professor from BYU who was praying for missionary opportunties. She saw W and E at temple square, made the Poland connection and got their info. The sisters here contacted them but since they are in our area brought them to meet us at the chapel. They are super nice and were curios to know more. Sadly they are in a rut so many fall into. She works with autistic children and they are both nice good people, the thing is they think that's enough. They see churches as places that give more rules that aren't really needed. The funny thing is that, yes our church requires a lot from our members but the point of it all isn't to follow commandments. Instead the gospel offers us more than we can or need to offer it. We shouldn't follow Christ our of fear, habit or merely because we think "it's the right thing to do." We follow Christ because it brings us joy and the plan Heavenly Father has for us will bring us more peace and happiness than anything else. God doesn't command us to do things for us to become good people, that's a product but His real goal is our joy and success.

Wroclaw is great. The branch members here continue to strengthen me by their committment, faith, and testimonies. Yesterday in church we had Young Women in excellence as our sacrament program. Usually it wouldn't happen like that but since the Calls (with Cindy - 17) live an hour away and the branch is so small it made sense. It was great. Cindy Call and Tsonga Lee (The Lees joined in Korea but moved to Wroclaw and are now in our branch) both spoke along with Sisters Bown, Poklinkowska, and Lloyd. I was really impressed with the young womens' testimonies, they are powerful. They also sang "Because I Have Been Given Much", which invited the Spirit strongly. It was a great meeting! Our members are incredible. I am so blessed.

This is probably the last chance I have to email before Christmas so I send my wishes. Enjoy this time. Have fun with family, friends and loved ones. Look to serve and include others. I'm studying Christ's life this month and remembering all he has done for us. What a great time of the year. Wesołych świąt!

Starszy Kimball 

Month Mark

What a week!

This week was amazing! 

This week our branch had a baptism! The sisters have been teaching T for a couple months and she was baptized and confirmed this weekend. She's a 20-year-old student from Azerbaijan who found the sisters as she was coming off a train. She approached Sister Poklinkowska and said she was looking for truth. As soon as the sisters started teaching T, her testimony began to grow - she was so prepared - she's great! 

Her baptism was Saturday night. First we all met at the chapel, some sisters in the branch arrived early and decorated the Christmas tree and Sister Bown and Poklinkwoska had set everything up for the baptism so it all looked so good. Most of the branch came as well as M and A (investigators) so it was a great turn out. Sister C spoke on baptism and O spoke on the Holy Ghost. Sister C so bold, simple, and testified by the Spirit that it was so powerful. O was honest, relatable, and also testified by the Spirit. Their testimonies were so strong and I felt the Holy Ghost so piercingly. We may not have the most members here in Wroclaw or Poland but we have quality. They are solid members who strengthen my own testimony. It got me excited to find and teach people, to have them be able to testify with such conviction. Plus it was all in English since T is better at English than Polish, that was nice, although they were translated on the spot which actually really helped with my Polish (we'll get to that later.) We then all walked over to the pool. (I wonder what people think of us doing baptisms in a pool here, usually we have a font in our buildings but not here so it's kind of fun!) President Z, the district president, performed the baptism and Starszy Godwin and I were witnesses. She came out of the water in tears, it was a great event. We then returned to the chapel to close the meeting and have refreshments. I got to talk with T a little afterwards. I asked her how she felt to which she said refreshed and "light." It reminded my of my favorite scripture in Matthew 11:28-30 about how Christ makes our burdens "light" as we take His yoke upon us. The blessings that we receive are endless. It was such a great night for us missionaries, for the Branch, and for T. 

Just a little update for the mission baptisms: since I've been her we've had 5. The first three weeks ago, another two weeks ago and then three this past Saturday! The work is rolling along even in Poland!

Yesterday in church she was confirmed but President C, our branch president, with us missionaries and M (the one Melchezedick priesthood holder in the branch besides Pres or Pres Z) stood in the circle. With it T received a great blessing. I'm so excited for her, the gift of the Holy Ghost is so divine and has been such a blessing in my life.

I also had a really good talk with M yesterday after sacrament meeting. We aren't teaching him right now but he's still coming to church, family home evening, and even Tamara's baptism. 

He asked me how I could say that I "know" that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is true. I shared my testimony of prayer and being willing to accept God's will and answers even if it's hard (which it often is.) I also invited him to read the Book of Mormon more often and sincerely to gain a testimony of the essentials because he has a lot of doubts. I have question and even doubts sometimes, which I told him. I said questions aren't bad as long as they lead to truth. I went on to explain that we need to humbly be searching for answers. The questions or doubts I have don't shake my testimony because of the basic truths I've grown to know. I told him that he needs to gain experience of listening to the Holy Ghost to know the most important truths, that's what matters most. I know that he is searching and I hope he finds truth and peace.

J was at church yesterday and he said he would be free to meet this week but couldn't give a concrete time so we are calling him today. We still have never officially met with him although he was at the Lloyd's house for Thanksgiving dinner. He seems great and I'm excited to get to know him more.

Polish is still hard. My speaking has improved but my understanding is still lagging quite a bit. I've had several stress dreams about arriving at the end of my mission and not knowing Polish. I know perfection isn't the goal and it will come with time and a lot of hard work so I'm trying not to be too discouraged. 

This week I also was able to set some concrete goals and organize myself. I've been thinking a lot about who I want to be at the end of my mission. Recently I've been trying to figure out how to change to be the person I want while keeping the attributes I want. 

Life is good, I'm happy. The Christmas season is great. It makes me a little sad not to be home but there is still so much joy and holiday Spirit here. Enjoy it :)

Starszy Kimball

Sorry this is late, we were out of town but we pulled some meal times together to write today. I feel like so much has changed, mainly in myself.

Last week we had a Thanksgiving dinner at the Lloyds (the senior missionary couple here.) They said we could invite investigators so both the sisters and us each had three investigators (one of the sisters' guests was K, a Recent convert) there, it was quite the event. We were able to share a big American feast with them all and it was a nice relaxed setting to get to them all better. The food was delicious! In between dinner and dessert we all went around and said what we were grateful for, everyone did it and it was awesome. Everyone there had a good time, there was enough of us to make it fun but few of us to make it intimate and everybody was included. We had M, J, and J2 there. Overall it was fun, the Spirit was definitely present and it was just a happy night.

J is a star, he is strong and doing well but his family just isn't on board. His son came down and talked with us last time, he was nice, had a lot of questions and doubts. He was a teenage son without a strong belief in God but at least he's not against it. We gave him a brochure and asked him to try praying and to look out for answers. Sadly there's not too much to progress towards until we hopefully can meet with J's wife.

M is good. He has a lot of questions and is really searching. He's really patient with me and is trying to get to know me better which is nice because being the junior companion who can barely speak most people aren't that interested in talking to you but he is. Hopefully this week we will be able to meet with him and get a better sense of where he's going.

J2 is awesome. We only met him our first Sunday here and then we was incommunicado since then. At the dinner we were able to talk to him a lot, in English because he was fluent so I understood what was going on. He said that he searched a lot of churches and referred himself to the missionaries here. He said that according to him this is the one church that makes sense and has the truth. He's golden BUT unfortunately his wife is against it so we need to work that out because we see much progress.

It's been a great last couple of days, we were out of town because we had a zone conference in Katowice. This past Monday our whole zone (Wroclaw, Krakow, Kielce, and Katowice) met up and went to Auschwitz together. World War II is a hard topic to discuss often. People want to treat it with the right sensitivity and respect as I will try to do. I noticed a few different points while being there.

1) It didn't seem real. We were walking along the pathways and through the buildings of where such catastrophe occurred but it was hard to realize and understand that it had really happened. We saw the shoes, glasses, hair and more of the prisoners but it's hard to believe that it could really happen.

2) Getting a glimpse of what people went through was a testimony to me of the strength that we have as humans. Many were so valiant and strong and as Heavenly Father's children we can receive so much help and are already blessed with such power within us, it is inspiring and motivating to realize what we are capable of getting through. Amazing examples.

3) We discussed why we went after the trip. A lot of the missionaries didn't like it and found it depressing. I find trips like these to be interesting and although it's hard to find an appropriate adjective it was good. It's important to learn what happened. For me it's important to realize that this still is happening around the world. It sparked my "save the world" instinct I developed in High School.

I have more to say but not the time.

That night we caroled and contacted back in Katowice, I got to talk to a Belgian guy from Flanders but we spoke in French and English. that was super exciting, he didn't seem too interested but we got his number so we'll see. We then had hot chocolate at the senior missionary couple's house. 

The next day we had zone training with President and Sister Edgren and the AP's (assistant to the president - missionaries chosen to be leaders for the mission and help the mission president with responsibilities). I learned a lot and it was fun to meet more missionaries here and spend a couple of days away.

I finally feel more capable and ready to work. I'm not as hesitant and I really want to contribute now. I love you all. 

Starszy Kimball